+ so near yet so far. +
she came back to visit us today.i knew abt it last night and i hav began to plan wat to say to her.having tat i got a F for maths again i m lost of words to tell her or even dare to look at her.i m such a disappointment,everyone improved but i didnt.i was waiting n waiting during e 1st break i kept staring at e entrance as if e queen is coming but still no sign of her.during PA lesson it was raining n i was afraid tat she wont turn up.my mind when awy aft gg through e MCQs.thinking wat will happen when i see her until i fell asleep(i dun even noe) when i woke up i checked my phone for any msg true enough i got 1 fr ou nai nai saying tat she is in e staff rm.rong fa n ming zhu cld sense tat how much i wld i want to dash out of e class at tat pt of time.i blink my eyes PA lesson ended i tot i wld run down but i didnt.i did went to e staff rm n took a glimpse of her.i dont even dare to go up to her n say 'hi',heard fr my frens saying tat she will go up to hall.it was EL lesson i kept staring at e entrance again ya i saw her but she stayed outside until e tcher finish talking.she gave a little speech while i kept hiding myself(trying nt to make any eye contact).aft she distribute her goodies tat she got for us, i saw a familiar shadow coming towards me(i knew she will come to me 1st).i dont hav e courage to look at her at all.she stood beside me n ask abt my studies n i knew she was gg to ask tat,i cant help but my tears jus went rolling down.i know i promised something b4 u left,tis yr is so diff fr last yr i dunno y mayb is u no one in class cld hav tat kind of faith tat u hav for me for e past 2 yrs really.i sat there saying nth n accept one word reply.lots of things came to mind n i wanted to tell her but no sound came out, my cry has been keeping inside ever since i know i got a F.there are things tat i wanted to do but i didnt cos is in e hall.i noe my frens were also waiting anxiously for her to talk to them so we ended our 'chat'.how i wish she cld sit there throughout.aft so many mths and she cld still rmb each n everyone of our probs n i cld feel my frens felt loved.i will really treasure tmr's fellowship wif u.
+ pls come back. +
having 1 wk 'holiday' nw.i dun like tis holi cos it is 1 wk b4 prelims.nobody gives me chem booster anymore(when can she read her mail n reply me),no one stuff me wif eng tys.by right u say u will spent more time to teach me tis yr yet u got a double workload in e end i onli met u once tis yr *sad* i jus felt u r sooooo far awy fr me(tis affect me alot).trying to stuff myself wif exam papers n tys n forcing myself to study.how nice if someone can accompany n motivate me to study.
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i m very delighted tat xb mummy made me a plant wif red sand,i m very impressed.still dunno wat is e plant weird weird de nvr see b4 will it grow flowers but i will take gd care of it.ou nai nai oso got her's wif multi coloured sand,melia n yan is blue n yellow.soon we will all b train to bcome xb's planters lol.
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hav been praying very hard for someone's comeback.it is very saddening to see someone whom u close wif to leave(hope i m to her).God loves no matter who u r or wat hav u done.i think u noe better thn me,HE love us so much tat HE send his son to die for us.so many things r happening i need someone to talk to n cry on.well i need a gd chat.