+ Esther VS Kinno. +
Esther: 为了朋友，不顾一切， 就算会受伤。
Kinno: 它为了朋友，真的受伤了。
Esther: 最讨厌什么都做不了，只能忍住痛，在旁边看。
Kinno: 不管什么时候，它都在旁边守候。
Y I compare myself with a dog? Hav u heard of dog taking aft it's owner character? In the family he takes aft my character e most even i hav left sg for studies.
我不完美，因为有你，我们到迦南美地，享受幸福的距离。。。
+ It's a 23-23 day! +
After roller coaster ride ytd, sld start wif a lighter note.
Last sat celebrated my bestie's 23rd birthday.
APS started 1 wk b4, plans coming in ard 1mth(or earlier) ago.
Yunny can be too lazy to eat/buy and end up with maggie.
So I had a wonderful tot y nt let e 2 Gohs cook. (I ithink e Gohs has been oweing e Neohs alot of $$ issit)
Allen n i took alt days to cook for her. The funny thing is she didnt discover anything and tot was a coincidence.
The gift i got for her the concept was 'practical' everything she must be able to use, and must be something tat she uses! Well my bestie is a very practical person. (further details regarding gift will be on nxt post)
12mn: ek kor kor and i went to her hus, sang birthday song, evaluated e gift (had gd time laughing) when mcD for supper.
8am-1130am: went to karyn's hus her mum teach me how to bake cheese cake. (the 23rd gift) Rushed back for her cg.
245pm: b4 cg starts kelvin came my hus to store e cake. Ended up late for her cg. Aft cg upon knowing tat she is onli changing, find an excuse ran back home and get the cake. In e shortest possible time got ready, light candles, hide beside the lift they took. JENG! Happy brithday tune sound again, caught off guard.
430pm: My cheese cake arrives. *kan cheong*
730pm: Gather ppl, spread my plan, go yum cha.
9pm-11pm: Received call fr ek kor kor on e way fetching her back. Lo n behold while parking e car e yellow mini appeared, honk honk! my heart sanked. Thanks to jeff for his wonderful story which convinced yunny 100% Drag the time waiting for kelvin to come. Set off! down e mt and through e valley. Everyone hide in e emergency exit, light up e candles. Ding dong! Ta- da! presents e 23rd gift hahaha take photos, cont e 38-ing.
11pm-12mn: Due to technical problem, allen miss e 1st show. Stir my brain juice prepare for another round of suprise. 1st coming, nt prepared send back 2nd coming wow! lighted muffin!!!
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On sunday yunny spend her close frens/leaders a dinner at hard rock cafe, getting thr e process was tough. She went through emotional roller coaster.(1st time i saw) During e dinner loads of chit chatting & photos taking. Went back cont to work till 3am.
+ Love... U said. +
Spirit to spirit connected, yet we took so long to tell.
I m suprise we both sense it.
How much u wan to noe, how much i wan to noe.
Sometimes it breaks my heart.
When i seeks Daddy opinion, He say love.
How important is tis friendship to u? It means alot to me.
I have been struggling abt it, even more when someone came into e picture.
I m certainly more happy thn anyone else abt tat person who came into ur life.
If everything happens, how far we could go?
Will it last?
Or
Will everything repeats?
Am i selfish?
Speak to me, wisdom, directions, openess, courage, strength i ask in Your name.
+ Rescuing hug. +
For ma cherie: . .
+ Jus give. +
If u love...GIVE.
If u hate...GIVE.
If u love so much...GIVE even MORE
If u hate alot...GIVE even much MORE
God love us...therefore he gave
I love u so...I GIVE
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Cannot get angry/upset wif u la, e anger, hurt, disappointment cant even last for 10mins.
Sometimes i jus hate myself y i cant get angry/upset wif u more longer thn tat felt lousy at times, until one day i realise tat is how much i love, how much i m willing to give, how much i hav given, nt even thinking abt e returns. Oh so divine! In less thn 1 yr is already like tat, cant believe 4 yrs later, one of us got attached or both. Something $$ cant buy, ppl cant give, cant simply get anywhere, onli fr and through God. Forgive me if i didnt live up to ur expactations.
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Dinner was great accept tat for 3 diff standards of saltiness & sweetness. Onli manage to get e sweetness correct. Must improve!
Smart act fr ek kor kor.
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Still nt used to letting ppl into my room. I always find my hus/room is something very very private. Back in sg onli a handful of my frens came my hus b4, nt say my own room. However who-so-ever came have enjoyed very gd privillage, especially broswing thru those childhood pics, even better if u get to listen my mum's stories telling.
Moral of e story: In KL, If u have ever slept over my place by invitation/ I have slept peacefully during ur presence meaning, u r esther's great fren. If nt try harder la.
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Oh yea, physical touch oso. Nt my primary love language but i do give a fair share in my life. For me is very common to hug, place hand over shoulder, cross ur hand over my hand, leaning on shoulder. One thing I learn in KL is holding hands, very funny my frens in sg dun do tat, but frens in KL it seems so common, e feeling was quite weird to me at 1st. Somehow recently I could feel how intruding those 'common' stuff can be. Fr certain ppl even jus placing their hands on my shoulder i could feel very very uncomfortable dunno y, didnt had tat feeling b4 back in sg as it was really common. The reaction is like 'can u keep ur hands off ' in my mind, sounded so crude but is true.
Moral of the story: If u have done e above 'common' stuff wif me n i still feeling ok meaning u r fine. If u have done everything above(especially holding hands) wif me u must be really special to me cos tat part is e hardest to conquer.
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Seriously I dunno y I end up talking abt all these, they jus crossed my mind suddenly. By saying all these make myself sounded more like a weirdo. Or mayb I m jus making some ppl feel worse or important either one. *bleah*
+ Prepaid is gd. +
Received RM30 credit top up today during lunch hrs. In my heart 1st person i tot was ek kor kor, but he say is nt him. Nw i m wondering...haha
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My dvd rom has revive on its own! Therefore it's an awesome day for me! Nt jus tat 6834 is coming back soon, miss it la.
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I jus realise in my life thr r some ppl tot tat they r close to me but truly they r nt. Esther got her ISO 1988 quality standard to define her close frens. Being together doesnt mean we r closer, jus means tat i happen to be at e same place constantly. For example in a work place i see u everyday, in coll we always go lunch together, we travel fr one place to another, all these were jus doing somethings together jus bcos we r in e same place at e same time.
Jus ask how well we noe each other, final ans nt really. We always eat lunch together jus tat we all mearly needs accompany. So dun assume. I think i sounded quite cold blooded, nvm jus some tots.
+ 突然有点胡思乱想。。。 +
+ Exciting events. +
Ideas run wild, power of creativity!
I m amazed by myself.
I m super amazed wat's ek kor kor is gg to do.
I m extremely amaazed abt yunny's ideas.
Cant wait, cant wait to see those reactions.
APS, secret mission, spying, pranking...
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Plan was smooth as far as concern.
8 more items. (nt easy, really)
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Take all cost to take e relationship to a higher level.
Dont wanna regret for things which i didnt do, yet inside very much wanted to.
Final MMW was totally awesome! I laughed my heart out. Very touching in e end.
So nw i m certified to get married! yea ha!
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Hazel came n stayed over for 3 nights bcos of CLT training.
1st nite: expected cant slp, cos i m nt used to someone nt-very-close to slp in e same room with me. 3am upstairs neighbour started knocking, drilling...too much, confronted one of them fr my yard. Still useless, didnt slp in e end
2nd night: Came back fr KL 3am, chatted awhile thn slp.
3rd night: Showed her my mission, she almost fainted, eyes poping out, mouth left wide opened.
I m relief to see e kind of reaction cos i wld surely get a better one on tat day! Both of us chatted till we fell asleep.
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Exams tis wk, work hard!
Go back sg, play hard! *winks*
+ Not funny. +
I had enough...................
My name is Esther Goh Shi Shi.
For some of u who know me fr e past go ahead n keep calling my chi name or
For a change u wan to call esther oso can.
However, pls do not make fun over it!!!! and dun try to be funny.
If u cant pronunce chi hanyu pinyin properly pls call my eng name (if nt eng name for wat)
If u happen to miss pronunce it for e 1st or 2nd time u r automatically forgiven but dun joke over it.
By telling u past stories is for u to noe more abt me nt for u to joke more abt it.
For all u noe I m a all time joker, u can say i m senstive, cant take joke la or wat-so-ever...
To me tis is very rude. VERBAL VOMIT.
+ BTH! +
Buay tahan! So many times, i gave chance for u. So many times i tipped u off. So many times i was gg to do it but i choose to let u fulfil it. Y u always need ppl to tell u wat he/she wans in order for u to act? Always no initiative taken.
I noe u gonna say 'diff ppl diff mah..' nt all think e same like i do. Well for e 1st time i see love can be express through such a 'rationle' way. Too slow la. If u cant do it on ur own u always can depend on ur frens to help u mah. Jus ask!
Timing is very important thing, be it guy or girl.
A cup of coffee wldnt matter tat much if it is deliever at a wrong time.
A simple homemade sandwich wld matters alot when it is brought to ur side when u r too lazy to buy breakfast.
Let see wat happens nxt, which will determine my nxt move.
Noel time to act la!
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15 items more to go...Lord reveal to me wat to buy. Checklist... I wanna go spy spy again.
Oh yea e day is coming... my dearest yunny pls tell me wat u wan (no cash hor).
+ Learning. +
Thank God for emerge. Superstars meeting. It was a real blast, seeing members tat hav grown n gone tis far. Vision re-fired. New plans. Higher faith.
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I need to admit i was wrong...trying my best. Dont judge!
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2 things struck me today. 1st was wat shirley had mention abt she n her best fren fr taiwan. I always hold e concern tat if we are far apart i might loose e relationship. Which one of e reason i struggle choosing to stay or leave. Now i noe if e relationship is strong no matter how far 2 person can be HS will always be among us to speak to us abt one another's life. Start building now! 2nd thing was i hav seen so many leaders, e best, good, bad. Sometimes i jus cant help but to compare L(A) wif L(B) if it is nt up to e standard thn i will think twice. Today i learned tat God is always a God of 2nd chance, e love he had for us to send his only son to die on e cross. Same thing i think back God place me to be under certain ppl at certain time is to grasp out fr them. No matter how unworthy e person is I still need to love afterall God rise e person up for a purpose. Transform learning into actions.
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Being a true fren.
Self check: Have I been a person tats
1. Serve
2. Being generous to others
3. Esteeming other better than myself
4. Being interested
5. Encouraging
6. Appreciative
7. Smiling
8. Loving