+ Suprises. +
Didnt blog for many days.Thr r many little things happening for e pass 1 wk.I was preparing for e adminssion to KL wha i printed 3 FULL copies of my passport i think i will go broke on e postage arhh.Wanted to send in everything by fri but the bank cldnt do e transaction for me hav to do it on mon.I jus bought a new fujitsu laptop still trying to get use to the keyboard n the scroll pad.I still need to buy 2 webcams,1 thumb drive,some new clothes and i seriously need a digital cam my mum is grumbling for spending so much $$ so is thr any kind soul who is willing to bless me a digital cam??? haha jus joking.
The IT world is in a big mess 1st we got 'tammy nyp' wif her latest production.Many guys went crazy looking for e video flooding all e forums and virus were spreading through those so called 'video'.2nd matter was closer to me frens got hurt by some misunderstanding in e IT world.All i can say is in tis IT world 1 word can be interpreted in many ways.
Mummy have proven herself through many diff ways tat she is very kan chong n concern abt my overseas studies.I mention b4 she sheldom show her love in much obvious manner but recently 我深深的体会到这难得一次，她那一份毫无保留也很真诚的爱。实在让我太感动了！
Yeah!!翠芳 won e superhost! She has all along been my fav among the rest.I think all e female contestant hav improve tremendously espically 梁怡,she did very well for round 1.S6 was quite off today nt his standard at all,S4 did suprisingly well for tonight.All e best to 翠芳！我是超级主持人，手握麦克风。
+ 爱你也难，恨你也难。 +
Opps sry i forgot to say wat's hanabi.It is a jap restaurant tat hav a-la-carte buffet i think is ard 30+++ per pax.They might nt hav as many variety as kuishin bo but e quality of food is really way better thn kb.It's at bukit timah rd king's arcade.
I jus made a phone call n received a phone call (both christian).Again 1 said yes n another no.Argh i jus mention tat i finally got out of e 5 days of torture.Nvm enough said but anyway u all still can jus cont to give me ur advises.The person whom i call is fel.
shiz: ' hey do u still rmb tis person or nt'
fel: 'ya la'
shiz: 'haha so how r u busy?'
fel: 'yea,oh ya hor u r oso getting results'
fel: 'opps i totally forgot abt it i keep remembering tat is onli e express'
shiz: (inside my heart was like 'pring piang piang' broken)
fel: 'so how u did?'
shiz:(told her my results)
fel: 'oh ok wat happen to sci? phy ar? wha really lei i totally fogot abt it man,i think i m crazy liao'
shiz: 'lol inside my heart was 'how can u forgot!' and she did mention a few times of 'i think i m crazy liao'
Well a few post b4 tis i sound like i was quite angry/sad/disappointed when fel didnt call n ask abt my results even a few days aft.However,in e end like i said she is jus someone so hard to get angry wif so i still went n call her up.*laughing at myself* We didnt talk very long (i wish was longer) bcos she was busy wif something.We r mtg up soon! every yr it is e best thing to b able to see her cos she is SUPER DUPER busy!
Meanwhile i will be busy wif preparing for msia getting ready n all those stuff.Start booking if u wanna meet up, 7788 sld all come together again!
+ Quality time. +
If u r still thinking of kuishin bo wrong wrong wrong u sld start gg to hanabi instead.Especially those who love sashimi so much like me thn hanabi might jus b e best place for u.Haha imagine free flow of ur fav sashimi which r so fresh wow~ *ROTFL* So hanabi must pay me some $$ for advertising i dun mind free meals *laughs*
Had dinner with tis very close fren of mine,hope thr will b one more b4 i leave but it will b my treat.We sat at a place whr we hav gd view of rich ppl's cars n houses.While i was banging hard on my fav salmon sashimi tis fren of mine went drunk on miso soup lol wat a way to describe.We found out tat both of us are salmon n prawn lover.When close frens come together n talk they will talk non stop n forget abt e time.Oh ya almost forgotten abt it hanabi's service was GREAT! so fast when getting someone to serve us,faster on topping up my green tea,fastest on serving e food despite of peak hr.I love e time we hav spent n e awesome food we hav ate,happiest day aft e 1 wk of torture.I crave for more quality time spend like tis wif my close frens.
While waiting for a cab we saw chen liping's red mini copper sister car of jeff's which is a green one.Heard fr cherlyn tat jeff's pictorial bk is out on sale nw! haha saw e papers tat he got gd reviews fr those china companies so happy for him.I hope tat he can cont to make his name big in oversea n nt forgeting tis 2 fren of his.Oh ya he sld hav gotten me to do some shots for his pictorial since he admire my photography skills so much.Ya i rmb he still owe us a few meals tat he hav promised.Hope i can get a chance to see him b4 i leave.*so funny*
+ moving on... +
The pass 1 wk was one of my toughest days of life.I m very thankful tat many gave me advise.Some agreed some dont.I hav learn fr e pass 1 wk tat thr isnt any perfect solution,is all up to each preference n desire.Some may feel plan A is better but some may feel tat plan B is better they all hav their stand.Mummy told me tis over e phone "go n do wat u really like,do e necessary reseach n dun regret." Over e wk thr were ppl who encourage me to stay n go making e decision was tough.My mum oso taught me something over e yrs tat we sld be happy wif wat we r doing n nt doing for e sake of doing.Tat's y 14 yrs ago my mum choose to give up everything jus for e sake of her 2 kids.Thank God for mr wong who taught me how to qns.So over e wk i kept questioning myself until sometimes i was to engross n ended up sleeping 4am.At certain pt in time i was so lost until i really dunno wat to do or which way to go.I jus went to ring ppl up n talk n someone did help me to my decision.
I talked to some ppl wif fear cos i m so afraid tat wat i feel or think wld offend them especially those words i use.I dun wan ppl to feel tat they r wasting their time giving advise to me.All bcos i think through everyone's advise carefully tats y i took so long to come to e decision.I also felt very comfortable talking to certain ppl,i m able to speak out my mind n nt afraiding tat they wld disagree or nt.They wld listen to wat i really wan rather thn telling me wat they really wan me to do.
Yes yes i m leaving to msia.I still haven receive any call or msg fr fel sigh.
+ 开心的一天 +
好有缘！I actually saw tis 2 ladies twice in a day in e a same cabin! i saw them while i travel to city hall in e same cabin we alight at e same stop.Then when i left city hall i met them again but they board e train at orchard same cabin again lol.They dun look local to me,carrying their big bags ard.I like e white top lady's sunglass tats y they left great impression to me.Oh ya they didnt chat nor smile while inside e train.Weird though but 实在太好笑了。
+ 我只是想要...... +
Dunno how to go abt writing tis post.Till nw i m still nt convince tat i got a 7 for maths.I put in so much effort since N lvl until i almost gave up during prelim n buck myself up aft prelim.Mr yong was disappointed n so do i.I cant figure out y all e effort didnt pay off.Everyone tot i wld get below 20 n above avg in class but i onli did avg.Mr yong was afraid tat i wld breakdown upon receiving e result so he got mummy to sit beside him and i didnt.I was too cool when collecting result 硬撑.Almost cried while talking to ou nai nai,i cried over e phone while talking to mummy but she didnt noe.
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ou nai nai: 'u ok mah?'
me: 'i m ok' (trying nt to show any sadness)
while i almost cried thn ms wong came n cut e conversation,so i quickly try so hard to go back normal mode.
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Phone call wif mummy.
mummy: 'so r u ok?'
me: (sounding happy when tears already covered my whole face)'oh i m ok,no prob jus so very disappointed wif maths lor'
mummy: 'so whr r u gg?'
me: 'sld b msia lor'
mummy: 'okie i will go visit u once in a while thn'
me: 'hmm ok'
很抱歉没什么能让你们值得骄傲的。
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While i was so prepared to go msia lindsey came n talk to me on msn.
lindsey: 'u very sure u wan to go msia n do tis course?'
me: 'no choice if i got 15pts i wld hav stayed'
lindsey: 'u noe gg oversea is very tough n u r gg 4yrs lei,u might jus loose all ur frens when u come back.though msia is so near but still it wld b diff when u return'
me: 'i noe,of course it wld b tough in e begining i will still b afraid n unsure afterall is a new place'
lindsey: 'i m so afraid to noe tat u r so prepared to me is so scary'
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She encourage me to take private dip course in sg 1st n see if i really like studying hotel management.I m considering if i can find gd one in sg,taylor is e best hotel in KL afterall.Wat struck me the most is e part where she mention abt i might loose all my frens when i come back.My onli concern is will my VIPs still b as close as we r nw or will they still love me as much as like nw? or i wld end up in e 'freezer' 4 yrs later? if i wld end up in e 'freezer' i wld b very much depressed.
I was waiting for fel to call but she didnt nt even a msg.Cherlyn wans me to accompany her to study in aust but i cant unless my mum strike TOTO or 4D.Email-ed mrs hee my results, suprisingly she didnt comment anything abt my maths grade.she n lindsey said i sld go b a scientist sad to say i dont like working in labs.Right nw i dunno how to describe my feelings but i hav no regrets at all bcos i really work hard for O's jus tat efforts didnt pay off.
+ 小诗思-陪伴她成长的人 +
i think tis wld be a write up of myself.some reflections aft cny.God place many ppl in my life at my diff growing stage.jus to name a few main ones in various stage.
Tcher deborah,godma fr YMCA(18mths till pri 6):tcher deborah is a tcher whom i always glue to when i m in child care centre.she wld always brin me to e playground beside e child care centre.if u heard me saying b4 tat i hav a person whom wld faithfully rmb my birthday every yr,she is the one.every yr without fail i wld receive a gift fr her and she wld try to attend all my birthday celebrations.she loves to give me books chi story bks,eng fairytales,sci encyclopedia and e last one she gave me was bk vouchers.in e past whenever i feel sad or hurt i wld hide in e room n ring her up for help,and in less thn an hr she wld appear in front of me comforting me.till nw though i havent seen her for yrs nor received her birthday gifts since sec2,i still miss her alot.mayb inside her heart she tot tat i hav grown up n forgetten abt her so she is to shy to vist me.i intend to visit her aft my O's results,jus pray hard tat it will b good.
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Bishan ah ma(born-pri6):ah ma spolit me alot,dotes on me like crazy.she wld buy me lots of toys when i m young.she wld celebrate birthdays for me,brin me out to swim.she wld buy me clothes for chinese new year(nt cheap).i used to be e princess in funan(nw funan IT mall) everyone noes me thr so i wld wonder ard in e building as though it is mine.thr was once i lost my dearest pillow while i was playing,i cried until i almost flooded e building.ah ma n ah gong went high n low in e building jus to find back e pillow for me.aft tat incident e whole building noes tat i m e little girl holding on e pillow where ever she goes.although nw i onli get to see her once a yr but her love for me is always thr which i m very touch till nw.if nt for her in e past thr wont be shiz today.
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Godma,bishan ah ma's daughter(born-pri6):i rmb clearly tat godma always like to brin me to sogo(nw robinson) n thr i found lots of lego.the tubs n tubs of lego i used to play was mainly brought by her.i also rmb her buying me garfield chocolates(nt availd anymore) which was my fav in e past.she took very gd care of me when she was single thn attached thn married.aft she got her own kids thn i got neglected i sound abit jealous but nvm atleast i m her 1st love haha.
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Pei2,cousin(pri1-still counting):i always get bullied by my sis n thr was nth i cld do abt it at tat kind of age.pei2 was my listening ear in my rebellious stage.i wld go to her hus we both lie on her bed n talk our hearts out n her hi-fi wld play jeff chang's songs.she was e one who walk wif me while i was in one of my darkest moments.she used to be e person who noes me e best cos i will tell her everything tat happened in my pri sch life.
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TTC,tian tian cai(sec1-sec3):among all she is e one who hurts me e most.she gave me lots of love in one period of time.if i say i dunno e way to a certain place she wld find time despite of her hectic schedule n drive me to e place.if she is nearby my sch she wld msg me n drive me home or we wld go lunch.she wld rather go lunch wif me when thr r lots of ppl q-ing up to hav lunch wif her.one pt in time we sms each other everyday.we were so close until her workers tot i was her daughter my frens tot she was my godma.ppl like ah li seen her b4 rmb she gave us a lift to bishan stadium in one of our sch's sports day.sad to say aft she got pregnant she left me in e 'freezer' n since thn she jus left my life.
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Felicia(sec3-still counting):the person whom i wld call up n cry.eventhough we dun see each other very often but she will b always thr whenever i need someone to talk to.she is like a da jie jie to me,nvr fail to give me gd advice,shower me wif care always concern abt wat i m doing.she is a person wif no temper at all n u cant bear to b angry wif her also.she n xb mummy is e cause of my turning pt in life.
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Xb mummy(sec3-still counting):fr her nick u noe my mummy lor.to me she is a mum 24/7 she is giving me new guidence,directions and perspectives.she sees a diff me,e one who can read my mind.she did things tat i nvr believe a human wld do it.although she nvr really show much or even like to give me funny names but i noe she loves n cares alot for me.she is e one i wld hold closely to my heart.i noe if she gonna read tis her hair will stand again *laughs*
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Ou nai nai(sec4-still counting):even i noe u will be reading but i still want to write =p she is e one who dotes me alot, love to bless me wif lots of gifts.she always buy me books,i realise tchers like to buy books? she is forever very encouraging.i rmb many session gg into her class n chit chat wif her.whenever she walk pass my cls she wld wave so hard at me with a sweet smile.i m very touched by her effort, taking time to visit tis site despite of her heavy timetable.
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took me so long to type tis post,nw more secrets are revealed dun laugh at me ok.mayb i consider to post some of their photos hehe.